i'm a structured person. i always have been. true, i hide it well but it still doesn't make me any less structured so imagine my frustration when i sit down to write a paper and nothing but blah seems to spill out of my head. yes, i am writing a paper. an evil, conniving, soul-sucking paper that doesn't want to be written. i tell you, if i had to write a story on this topic i could write it single space 5 pages but can i write a research paper, double spaced, 4 pages? no! it comes out looking like the blob (not the new one, the old one) and doing all the destruction of godzilla on the street of manhattan. my thoughts are everywhere and i can concentrate. i wrote maybe one page in the six hours i've sat here. total page length right now: 2 pages. target page length: 4 pages. surely i can write two more pages. hell, my opening paragraph is one page long!
i'm going crazy as well. spring fever has hit full force and nothing is soothing the blaze. my desk is a mess. i'm feeling crowded. my bed has remained unmade for 2 days and it's really ticking me off. my hair needs to be cut. i feel fat. i can't stand my allergies much longer. and i'm totally stressed for no apparent reason. i don't think i'm alone though. everyone i know is going stir-crazy. it's the warm weather. after the winter months, when your brain is frozen to your studies and there's no reason to really venture out into the cold, spring rolls around and your brain become defrosted and you realize "yes! the world is alive again! i can go outside without freezing! halleluiah!" and then all your joys are dashed when you discover that you have 3 freaking weeks of school left. damn. those are the longest 3 weeks in the history of mankind. you also get these crazy, weird people who drive around in their huge trucks with a loud speaker yelling absolutely pointless things. come on, use it for something useful for a change instead of yelling "wooooooooooooo! looket me! i be damn cool!" or whatever it is they yell.
my structure is broken. where's the architech?
3 comments:
not that i'm complaining about warm weather...but it doesn't do much for the studies. its kinda tourturous. but i've found that toting my books down to the quad, along with a blanket, it makes you feel like you're being studious. even though all i'm doing is sleeping and soaking up sun. God speed may 11.
I know what you mean kait. At least you only have three weeks left! You can do it! I have faith in you! And I heart you! And since I'll be home for the summer, we can hang out loads and loads! :)
Hey!! I totally feel your pain on the spring fever scenario. I too have taken my red checked quilt to study err sleep outside. I am now in finals week, and God help me... at least you know that you're not alone in your trials, chika! See you this summer!!!! Can't wait to hang out :) ~ J
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