does he notice?

so, i said wednesday that i had an assignment graphing the layout of an ancient greek temple. well... much to my utter disappointment, the prof didn't even collect it. *pout* i don't care if the prof took it and tossed it as soon as they got back to their office but i would have liked to at least felt like my work was worth something.

i had my first sociology test wednesday... i wonder if i can take that class pass/fail...

anyway, those of you that know me should know that i'm an observer. i prefer watching as opposed to acting. i watch and think about it a long time before i actually do anything. i'm slow in joining new groups, hesitant to try new sports, and freeze when i meet new people. i like watching and "feeling out" the dynamics of a situation. perhaps it's cowardly when i decide that perhaps making the effort to get involved isn't worth it. *tsk* shame. maybe i spend way too much time inside my head. there's this guy i like. *sigh* yes, i know i don't say much about it on here because frankly, my lack of a thriving social life is sometimes depressing though i guess that depends on your defenition of "thriving."

so this guy... i feel like i'm playing this cat-and-mouse game. actually, that might be too definitive. after all, i don't know which of us is the cat and which is the mouse. maybe we're both mice or maybe he's just not even part of the game... eh... just my luck. *blink* either way, i'm on the prowl... kinda. it's more of a pathetic creep around. as freaky as that sounds... *frown* anyway, i see him frequently (let's just say it like that) and i'm not always as busy as i make myself out to be. every time i round the corner after see him i kind of slump and pout, telling myself, "i really ought to stop and chat..." but, i make excuses. he's busy. he's surrounded by a gaggle of giggling girls or chatting with the bros. and then when he's actually by himself i chicken out. *blush*

despite all that i wonder, does he notice? ok, i'm officially pathetic. at least i get to play ultimate tonight.